At times I feel “his feelings” almost more than my own and I wonder if I have lost myself to this person. Especially when I start feeling like I just want to go back to him and pretend none of this ever happened. In therapy he is apologetic and is saying the right things, but, as always, it doesn’t feel authentic to me. I can’t believe he thought so little of me that he would put my LIFE in danger by having sex with prostitutes. He’s now saying he’s a sex addict – that he’s been dealing w compulsive porn use for twenty years, “only rarely” surfs escort sites and “even more rarely” actually had sex w prostitutes. And in twenty years there have “only” been six (now it’s six, by the way) prostitutes. I’ve asked for transparency for us to move forward but I don’t think I’m getting it and don’t know if I ever will OR if he is being honest, if I’d be able to tell.It feels like he read some manual about what he’s supposed to say and do and that’s what he’s doing. I am desperate for support, for insights from those who have been through this, are going through it, are working to come out on the other side. We are in marriage counseling and currently living apart. I watch my girls play and feel such a profound loss – of the family I thought we had, as flawed as it may have been.I am sickened by him but at the same time feel this empathy for him – I feel badly that he isn’t seeing the kids as much as before, I feel badly that he seems to be suffering.I have come to think of him as a chronic malcontent.This stands in stark contrast to the man he purported to be at the beginning of our relationship almost ten years ago.He still lied – saying he had to pretend to be w prostitutes to stay connected on these sites.
The pictures depicted him at a Halloween party dressed as a prisoner in an orange jumpsuit labeled “Jail Bird.” The judge slammed him with a two-year jail sentence.
Several days later, while looking again through the cache I found two emails from yet another email account and demanded he show it to me.
After hemming and hawing about not remembering the password, he finally showed me the site and after much surfing around I found two emails confirming he had been with at least two prostitutes.
Earlier this year, the realms of law and new media collided when Lori Drew was hit with federal charges for creating a fake My Space page and harassing a neighboring teenager, who then committed suicide. technology, prosecutors are reportedly searching Facebook and My Space for photos of defendants to use as character evidence in sentencing hearings.
CNN reports that party photos and pictures of defendants drinking or looking unrepentant have resulted in harsher sentences for people charged in drunk driving accidents, with prosecutors presenting the incriminating pictures as evidence that the defendant lacked remorse.